My Own Dilemma: Obsession? Compulsion?


I am not quite the average person. In many ways I am unique. I have a broader sense of understanding than most people do. My field of interests covers a wider scope. I am independent and I chose to do things on my own if I am able to do them rather than ask somebody to do it in my behalf. In other words, I have a good sense of well-being. But as I get older, I notice strange habits that really bother me to some extent. It's my dilemma and I am still trying to dig deeper into it to find out why I do the things that I do. You decide, is it an obsession? Is it a compulsion? Or both?



  1. When I do my grocery shopping, stuff has to be grouped accordingly: (exempli gratia) all dry goods, canned goods, boxed goods, all frozen stuff, all veggies and fruits, all cleaning and laundry stuff--and not a single item should be mixed up with the rest. At times when the bagging attendant helps, and doesn't put away the stuff the same way I grouped, it really bothers me so much, almost to the point of pulling the guy away and doing it myself.

  2. When I park the car in the parking lot, I always park with the front end facing outwards, for easy exit later.


  3. When I am cooking, I must use about eight hundred ladles and spoons, and all the necessary accoutrements (food handling gloves, kitchen towels) just to make sure that not a bit of cross-contamination happens with any meat, veggies, ingredients or any food in the kitchen.


  4. When I am doing something that involves getting the hand wet like cooking or cleaning I make sure that there's a roll of paper towel within arm's length that I can grab right away to dry my hands. I cannot stand anything wet, sticky, slimy on my fingers for more than sixty seconds.


  5. When brushing my teeth, I have to brush for eternity until my tongue can feel that every single one of my tooth is clean.


  6. When I take a shower I have to use about five different products: 2 for my hair, 1 for my face, 1 for my skin, 1 for feminine hygiene. If one is missing...it's as good as if I didn't take a shower.


  7. When I am tasked to do a certain assignment, it's so stressful because I have to play every possible scenarios in my head on what could go wrong and what can I do to counteract when such happens. It's almost like making it sure that I have the perfect army with the perfect gear and the perfect ammunition for a sure defeat of the enemy in a battle.


To me the need to do these things only brings about two results. Absolute satisfaction...else...stress. And only time will tell if these habits will be eliminated or further made complicated.


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